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Monday, August 27, 2012

Sooooo much better

Thanks to everyone for your support on Friday, both on here and in private messages. There was a time that day when I thought we'd have to cancel our trip to Shadow Lane, and the frustration over that possibility and not knowing for sure was making me nuts. That, plus some hurt feelings over another issue, sent me into pressure-cooker mode and if I didn't blow off somewhere in a neat and controlled manner, things were going to get messy. It really helped, writing those few paragraphs and then sharing the full story with a couple of friends. Later, I was calm and resigned, not heading for John's feeling like a human hornet's nest. And as it turned out, our trip is safe after all.

Still, it was a long and tiring weekend. Visiting John's mom in the hospital, then driving to OC to visit my stepdad. I've been neglecting him and I really don't want to do that, because it makes him happy when we come to see him and have a bite to eat with him. For the first time, he looked feeble and old to me. Well, he is 94. He misses my mother. :-( But he's pleasant to be around and he's still telling the same cornball dirty jokes and limericks that he did when I was a kid (with the same impeccable timing). I hope he sticks around for a while.

Sooooo... by today, I was ready for some stress release. Enter Mr. D to deliver my pre-Shadow Lane warm-up, and not a minute too soon.

He said he would use only his hand tonight, but I didn't hold him to it. He's very strong, but his hand hasn't been seasoned yet. (I have no doubt that it will be after a while with me!) I told him about how Craig actually brought a brick into the house and sat in front of the TV slapping the brick, to toughen up his palm. Hilarious image, but it worked! I like to tease, but really, I want it to become comfortable for him so it won't hurt his hand. What fun is that, if it hurts him?? ;-)

We moved into the bedroom and I got some implements: the Spanking Buddy, two small paddles (leather and wood) and my hairbrush. "I want you on your knees, right here," he said, pointing to the side of the bed. I knelt down and he got down beside me, alternating the four implements. I'd been giggling and sassing with the hand spanking, but not any more. The heat and sting grew and I started squirming around so much, I could feel rug burns starting on my knees. So I waited for him to pause, then asked if I could please lie on the bed.

It didn't take long, with that first round. I was so full of tension and residual aggravation, and I felt my throat constricting and the tears rising. He noticed the change in my sounds, the deepening of my groans, and ramped it up. And I started to cry. Immediately, he stopped, gathered me close and held me as I wept into his shirt. "It's ok, I'm here," he kept whispering. "You're ok, you're ok. I'm with you." He kissed my cheek, kissed my tears. Which, of course, made me bawl harder as I trembled in his arms. But it felt good. I so needed that. I will always need that.

Some people still ask me, how can you have spanking without sex, or at least without some sort of sexual release afterward? If they could see me after a scene, they'd understand. That crying, that shaking, that outpouring of emotion? That is my orgasm.

Oh, we weren't done, mind you. Just resting. :-)  Later, after I'd calmed down, he took me back over his knee for more with the implements. No more tears this time, but it definitely hurt more the second round.

We lay on my bed for a long time, coming down and talking, and hours melted by. I'm enjoying getting to know him. The stereo in the background was, once again, playing the annual Rock and Roll A to Z countdown, and they were still in the A's. They'd just played "America" by Simon and Garfunkel, and "American Pie" has just started. "Oh, they're in the B's already," he murmured.


"Bye, bye, Miss American Pie!"

I snorted. "It's 'American Pie'! And how the hell could they skip from 'America' to 'Bye,' anyway??" He didn't have an answer for that, so he reached over and gave me a smack. "Watch it," he warned.

And of course, I kept giggling at him, shook my head and mumbled, "Dumbass."

He'd been lying down, but he was bolt upright in a heartbeat. "Oh, you just stepped in it that time, girl," he growled, pinning me to the bed and snatching the paddles and brush again. Damn, that third round was killer! I didn't even try to suck it up; I was thrashing around and shrieking "OKOKOK I'msorryI'msorryI'msorry!" (But I was laughing at the same time.)

The clip wasn't meant to be, kids. He brought it to me on a zip drive, but it seems to be a bit out of sync and choppy. Plus, I tried uploading it here and it just froze everything up. Ah, well. We didn't take pictures tonight, either. However, after he'd left and I'd gotten undressed, I took one with my timer. I call this: "Mission Accomplished -- Stress Released." Most of my color had faded already, but you can still see a smidgen of it.

I am so very lucky that I met Mr. D when I did. And best of all, I don't have to worry about him meeting anyone. He's already dating a woman and she knows all about me. All is cool and copacetic. He even borrowed a couple of my implements to try out on her (after ensuring that I was OK with this, which I totally was).

As he walked out the door, he turned back and said, once again, "I'm not going anywhere." I made light of it and joked, "Whaddaya mean? You're going somewhere right now!" But I appreciated hearing it. Even in this short time, he knows how much that means to me.

This weekend, in a weak moment, I said to John, "How come you're the only one who stays?" He didn't have an answer for that, just hugged me close. Sixteen years on Thursday, y'all.

Sweet dreams, Mr. D. Thank you.


  1. I'm so glad the turmoil has settled down and all's well in your world once more. It's amazing how therapeutic a spanking can be.

    Sixteen years together? That's amazing! Here's to the next sixteen.


  2. Why close friends go poof is as puzzling to me as string theory. One day it hugs and kisses and then they may as well be on the other side of Earth.

  3. Happy Anniversary. Great post. Too bad about the vid.

  4. Congratulations on sixteen years together.

    Thanks for sharing your "warm up" spanking with us.

    I am really glad that you are still attending SL.


  5. Hi just read your blog from 2010 about going to the dentist I've just had a silver crown and 2 silver fillings just wondering are your fillings silver how many fillings and crowns do you have

  6. Hi Erica -- I am so happy that everything turned out ok for you :-)Happy Sixteen year's to you and John :-)I am glad that you still are going to the SL party too.It's GREAT that Mr.D is here to stay.I wonder why people leave as well,that's why i have so many trust issue's. I Love how you brat HAHAHAHAHA LOL :-)Much Love and hug's from your naughty girl Jade

  7. Hermione -- our relationship is a bit unorthodox, but I guess we're doing something right, huh? :-) Thanks.

    OBB -- that is a question for the ages. I don't know. Relationships in the scene seem to be especially transitory, sometimes.

    Emen -- we'll figure it out and maybe have another one in the future.

    joey -- oh, me too. I would have been absolutely beside myself if I couldn't make this party. I need it like I need air.

    Anonymous -- um... well, I don't have any silver fillings. I have them all replaced with white composite fillings. I don't know how many I have. My crowns aren't silver, either. I have roughly eight of them, I think.

    Jade -- everyone leaves eventually, even if it's via death. Which is why it's best to enjoy them fully while they're around.

  8. Happy things have settled down and that SL is still on.

    Congratulations on 16 years together Erica.

    Lovely post.


  9. Erica,

    Yes, "Mission Accomplished -- Stress Released." We have a very special thing going. I love it when you get a little sassy because I love what comes after...and so do you! I'll say it once more. I'm not going anywhere.


    Mr. D

    1. Thanks for looking after Erica for us, Mr. D! We always look forward to hearing/reading/whatever Erica's posts after your visits, and we're really glad you both hit if off so instantly.

      Don't forget to return/replace those bottowed toys, will you, mate? (eh, sorry. Aussie vernacular sometimes creeps through... along with Aussie cheek!)

  10. Oh, Erica... Erica...

    You'll experience my hand again this coming weekend. Though I'm in Denmark at the moment I'll be sure to be lively enough to give you the full strength of my brick-hardened hand...

    ...and you'll love it. Won't you?


  11. Your stepdad sounds adorable. 100 years alive IS doable these days.

    And oh such a darned tragedy that bums hurt hands as much as the other way around! :) Poor poor tops.

    That is such great news about the new partnership. And his girlfriend seems pretty cool already. Maybe you and John and those two can couples date at some point.

  12. Ronnie -- thank you, dear. :-)

    Mr. D -- a little sassy? That's all I was, a LITTLE sassy? Hmm. I guess I need to up my game. ;-) Yes... I'm liking this very much.

    Craig -- you know it. :-)

    Kelly -- that could be fun, down the line! I like girlfriends who don't consider me a threat. I am so NOT a threat to anyone.

  13. That would've been awful if you had to cancel the trip. So glad you're still going to make it! It sounds like it was a good night and much needed. Thank goodness for cell phone camera timers, huh? I've been perfecting my self taken photos lately too. Lol.

  14. Lea -- cell phones have camera timers?? If mine does, I have no idea. I used my old-fashioned digital camera. :-)

  15. That works too! I've recently been trying out my cell phone's camera features of self portrait mode (makes it aim at me so I can see what I'm doing) and timer function. Then I can just prop the phone against something and pose for a post spanking shot.

  16. Erica! Wish I could see you at SL... I miss you lots! It would be so great to spend time with you and John. And Eve and Tony, and so on... But with a camping vacation in August, and another one coming up in September to visit the folks, well, bleah. Already looking ahead to BB. Gotta make it this time! Make sure to take care of my girl, and have a wonderful time...


  17. Danny -- Now waitaminnit. Am I understanding you correctly? You chose camping over SL? CAMPING??? Bleah, indeed!

    Ahh, I miss you, sweetie. It's been so long. I hope things are smashing with you.

  18. Oh, I will send you pictures... I know, it's been too long. Smashing, well, relatively, yeah.

  19. Erica,

    We can't see your face, but I'm guessing a spent Erica is a happy Erica :) Happy (early) anniversary to you guys! How will you be spending your Sweet Sixteen? If we don't hear all about it before Friday, then I'll just have to hear it at SL!


  20. SC -- we're actually not doing anything Thursday. Too busy getting ready for the party. But I consider the whole weekend our celebration! :-D

  21. Beautiful report as always, Erica! And congratulations on your anniversary with John. Here's to the next 16 years! I hope the two of you are going to have a wonderful time at Shadow Lane. :-)

  22. Kaelah -- thanks, sweetie, and happy 3rd blogaversary to you! :-)

  23. ahhhhhh... sweet sixteen! How wonderful for you and John! :-) AND, I mean that soooo sincerely.. that I'm going to suggest, to Mr D, as I'm sure he's reading this blog and the comments.. that he should take every implement the two of you have and give you 16 swats of each one (when you return from SL of course) to commemorate the lovely occasion!

    You're welcome!!

  24. Zelle -- oh, big help YOU are. :-Þ

  25. Erica, so glad to hear your stress is all gone and you're feeling so much better. So happy to hear that Mr. D's partner is cool with everything, it's always better that way, isn't it. LOL on Mr. D borrowing a few toys, its good when friends are that comfortable with each other.

    Congratulations to you and John on your 16th anniversary. Have loads of fun at Shadow Lane, and please tell us all about it, cause I'll have to live SL through you! (If you don't mind)

    Lol (lots of love)

  26. Terri -- it really is better. I like to keep things clean and open. And it irks me to no end when anyone considers me to be some sort of threat to their relationship. I have my OWN relationship. I have no desire to take another woman's man away from her.

    I promise, lots of party reports!