Second half of my punishment clips. There is only one thing I would change in any of them, and that's the final clip where our aftercare, his comforting me, went out of the frame. But you can still hear everything, and it's... well, you'll see.
The final paddling... and some very lovely words from NG that really broke the dam.
The end...
The real me, for my readers and my top/special friend, with love.
Bottom warming not withstanding.. that was incredibly heart warming as well. Damn.. I had tears in MY eyes.. geeze louise.. that was powerful. Thanks NG, what a wonderful friend and Top Erica has in you.... And thank you for sharing a never before seen side to you Erica. It takes a lot to show our vulnerability to others. You're the best. ♥~♥~♥
ReplyDeleteZelle -- thanks, my friend. :-) Oh... I keep forgetting to ask you how you make the hearts!
ReplyDeleteHello my Erica i agree with everything that Zelle said cause i feel the same way :-) YOU ARE THE BEST, And thank you for sharing this with all of us i know that took lot's of courage. Thank's to New Guy as well he is one AWESOME top, these were VERY POWERFUL video clip's it brought tear's to my eye's too. Thank's for paving the way so all us ladie's can show are true self on video as well. I LOVE YOU YOUR THE GREATEST, BIG HUG'S ALWAY'S From your naughty girl Jade xoxo
ReplyDelete♥ (ALT key held, while you tap 3 on the numbers pad) if ya have a PC Erica.. (grinz)
ReplyDeleteJade -- thank you, sweetie.
ReplyDeleteZelle -- ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ :-D
Real, beautiful and profound.
ReplyDeleteErica, thank you.
Lorraine -- that kind of reaction makes me smile; thank you. :-)
ReplyDeleteWow, what an emotional video. I was tearing up just watching it. Thank you for sharing. And to NG, if you're reading this, props to you for being such a stern but caring top. What every bottom wants. :-)
ReplyDeleteLea -- oh, he's reading. He may keep a low profile, but he sees all. Thank you. :-)
ReplyDeleteLet us know when your bottom feels better. I bet it takes a while! That was quite a lesson.
ReplyDeleteErica, I have to be honest and say that I have not dared look at these yet. I watched the first half of the first one (with the sound off) and it is because I suspect that you will take me with you somewhat and I am nervous about the journey. It is early here and I want to say something profound that lets you know how I feel but just imagine me sitting here with you for a while, very quietly.
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Rich -- welllllllllllll... It's fine now. (looking sheepish) The discomfort is all gone and the marking is very faint, probably gone by tomorrow. Scary, huh?
ReplyDeletePoppy -- you know, I thought about you. I didn't think you'd watch them. And it's totally OK, whether you do or you don't. (hugs)
I will watch them. Just quietly and with a pillow over my face.
ReplyDeleteYou promise to bring me a vodka afterwards, yes?
Poppy -- vodka and the best chocolates. :-)
ReplyDeleteAnd what if they make me good by default? Will you be the one to explain that to Dev?
ReplyDelete(I am off to get dressed for work now- isn't time difference an odd thing?)
LOL!! I wouldn't give that too much worry if I were you.
ReplyDeleteToo funny -- I'm sitting here in my underwear shmeared all over with self-tanner (TMI, I know) and watching the 11:00 news.
remarkable, Erica - your vulnerability mixed with your honesty - add my name to the list of those who watched with tears in their eyes.
ReplyDeleteand NG - what a very special man - he gets it, he gets YOU - confident, incredibly loving and wise. i am so glad that you have found one another.
Erica, that was was very sensitive and touching ... loved the way he handled you, and it took a lot for you to address the camera as well. A nice moment!
ReplyDeleteVery powerful and beautiful Erica. Thank you so much for sharing them with us and thanks to NG, he's quite a man.
ReplyDeleteHave a lovely weekend.
Love,
Ronnie
xx
Naxie -- me too!
ReplyDeleteRusty -- I hate how I look when I cry... but I know it was the ending needed and I'm glad he thought of it.
Ronnie -- indeed he is. :-)
Erica, how touching that was. You and NG are very lucky to have each other. My heart was in my throat as I watched. If I were there I would give you a hug, for your courage and your honesty.
ReplyDeleteBig tears in my eyes watching this, Erica. "You know why this paddle is heart-shaped?" Man, that killed me.
ReplyDeleteThank you for having the courage to post these videos -- they are a beautiful display of discipline done right.
Scarlet -- hugs are good, and I'd take it happily, and hug back.
ReplyDeletePink -- that part did me in as well.
Everyone -- these comments are especially gratifying and mean a great deal to me, so thank you.
Lesson well taught...lesson well learned.
ReplyDeleteThat man is a keeper for sure. The scolding was very inspiring even for someone like me who has a bit of a reckless streak inside. It seems like the potential disappointment he felt over your risky behavior hurt your feelings much more than the spanking you received. I could totally understand why this brought upon your tears. Maybe the force of the spanks was no different than your typical play sessions but the tone of his voice did convey his concern for you.
Super clips you two!
Kelly -- you're absolutely right. We have played longer and harder than this (albeit with a thorough warmup). It was his words and tone that got to me.
ReplyDeleteErica,
ReplyDeleteThe Villain and I have thoroughly enjoyed watching the people who care about you scold you for your lapse in protocol. While I know him to be a genuine boy scout, I fully understand the care shown by your loved ones.
It is refreshing to make the acquaintance of such a cool lady. Your writing and your posterior are equally enviable. Thank you for sharing both!
-Dana
Hi Erica,
ReplyDeleteThank you very much for sharing yourself so freely.
What I liked most about your video clips was your child-like reaction to NG’s entrance to your home. You showed a very vulnerable side of yourself, and I really appreciate your openness.
Perhaps at some level you’re a trusting person; you’d have to be in order for you to run your blog the way you do. I also personally believe you have good instincts as to whom you can really trust.
At some point, a woman has to take a chance with any man she connects with, even if it’s only for coffee, even if it only leads to a “vanilla” relationship. I think women, because of some quirk of nature, find themselves in the risk-taking role in relationships more so than men. For this you and all women have my deepest gratitude and respect, for it would be incredibly lonely without your company and the company of your female counterparts.
So where am I going with all this praise? I don’t really think your session with “The Villain” was that risky. Even if you had coffee with him, even if you made him wait a month or two, if he had wanted to kill you, he would have. But instead, what happened? If I understand your words, for maybe I read them a little too quickly, he spanked you only moderately with your panties on? Can we say “gentleman?” The Villain’s behavior says two things: one, he respects you, and two, he would like a repeat performance.
So I conclude with this: do you think perhaps that NG’s anger was over the top?
I always appreciate you sharing your Monday nights. This time I thank you for sharing the real you with everyone. I'm still very jealous of the men who get to spank you but I'm happy to know those who do spank you care for you and know we do too.
ReplyDeleteJon
Dana -- oh my! (beaming) How perfect to hear from you, the Villain's lovely Significant Other.
ReplyDeleteSee, everyone -- he's a Boy Scout! I have been VINDICATED! Okay, okay, not really... it was worth a try, no? :-D
Thank you so much, Dana. You are a class act.
Annapurna -- I get your point, I truly do. But what people objected to was not what happened (because the Villain turned out to be just what I thought he would be, a great guy), but what COULD have happened. You're right -- if he wanted to harm me, it wouldn't have mattered if we had coffee and chat or not. However, when I meet potential playmates in a neutral setting first, I can test my creep radar, which is generally spot on.
NG was not angry with me. He was concerned. So no... I don't think he was over the top at all. And here's what I love most of all... he showed everyone that a discipline scene can be effective without beating the girl into a bloody pulp.
Jon -- ah, don't be jealous... I'm more trouble than I'm worth, you know. :-) But thank you; you're sweet.
Oh how utterly sweet it was of The Villain's "Dana" to post! Her Villain had followed his "Scouts honor" for sure... I guess we could say you just forgot a few of your 'Girl Scout' protocols in a slip-knot-ski .. (heehee) -- but I'm still giving you "Brownie" points for sharing so much of your life with the masses!
ReplyDeleteGirl Scout cookies any one?? Thin mints!! ♥
Welllllllllllll... It's so difficult to punish girls when the feeling doesn't stick. It's a good thing you have all these readers to make sure you remember your misbehavior. Otherwise, I'm sure you'd slip up again!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure more spankings are called for.
Erica,
ReplyDeleteI hope you will have some fun spankings now, with NG. I am sure you will and I look forward to the next post for this coming Monday.
"Monday, Monday. So good to me. Monday, Monday was all I could hope it would be...." Something like that. :-)
Zelle -- LOL! Girl Scout cookies are a @#$%ing shakedown! I categorically refuse to buy them. John caves and buys the Samosas or Samoas or whatever the hell the coconut ones are, but I've never bought a box in my life.
ReplyDeleteRich -- you can count on that. :-)
Bobbie Jo -- yes, it's all about balance.
You one can ever say that you don't put it all out there for your blog friends. This was intense, personal, powerful, and beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThe power of cleansing tears is amazing.
The fact that you share your journey with us is such an amazing gift.
Erica, scenes like this are why you have so many faithful fans and friends!
AND might I just add.. "DITTO" to what Poppa said!
ReplyDeleteErica, Erica, Erica,
ReplyDeleteIs there no end to the facets of your jeweled soul? Are there no petals of your beautiful spirits flower you will not share willingly?
No, you, like the gem, like the flower, must be shared for beauty was created to be part of this whole we call life.
You've given this cold-heart a warmth I've not had in some time. You remind me of the magical quality of our lifestyle.
Important to us Doms is to see the delicate nature hidden deep within the submissive.
Thank you, beautiful girl, for showing us your true heart.
Love ya
Chev
Hi Erica, looks like NG really cares for you and your safety and needs, you are lucky to have him. I was tearing up at the end with you. I remember your first video of you and NG, my butt cheeks were clenched the whole time :-) .
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing.
Hey! my comment posted. I never was able to over here for some reason.
ReplyDeleteWell my dear erica , after seing the remainder of the clips I have to agree , when its done its done . I have watched many of your movies in the past and have been a fan a long time . I do believe that I have seen the real erica more here that any other time . Thank you for sharing what was probably much deserved but hard lesson for you . Again my respect level for you is Quite High .
ReplyDelete"I'm more trouble than I'm worth."
ReplyDeleteARE NOT!
Thank you so much for trusting us so much--enough to share the very most personal side of you and your spanking session with NG.
ReplyDeleteIt is evident that he truly cares about you and that you trust him implicitly. I'm quite sure that you do have good instincts, but sometimes (as so many others have commented) that is not enough.
Today, I finally had a chance to watch your clips in privacy. So very real. I hope you had a great weekend with John and that he's feeling better.
Poppa -- such kind words, and I appreciate them greatly.
ReplyDeleteChev -- how very nice; thank you!
Kaki -- welcome! Sorry about the earlier comment snafus.
Alan -- thank you.
Dana -- I've always wanted people to see that I have this side; hard to imagine it beneath all the sarcasm, isn't it. :-)
Erica,
ReplyDeleteI think you are a very sensitive person and it sure showed in the clips. You do have a side to you that you rarely let others in on and this time you did let us in on it. I really think it was courageous and special that you let us see your more vulnerable side. That is a side I believe we all have, but are afraid to acknowledge it. Your wit and sarcastic part is you, too. I hope you are ok with letting us see your tears. I think you are now and tears are nothing to be ashamed of. It also showed some of your strength of character.
I hope you will have some more of those, um, what do you call it? Notes of idiocy? LOL I really enjoy those and your witty comments. Keep up the good work here because I really like your blog.
YOUR THE GREATEST MY ERICA :-) YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST I LOVE YOU FOREVER YOUR MY FAVOURITE SPANKEE :-)
ReplyDeleteI am not so sure who cried the hardest at the end - me or you. There is not much more I can say, this was such a personal journey for you (both), and it was powerful.
ReplyDeleteHugs
Raven
Raven -- hugs back to you, sweetie.
ReplyDeleteErica, I love those spankings you were given, especially the one that is given to you with the belt. Please, Please, Erica, your bare bottom is worthy of being encased in a garter-belt plus stockings on your legs. These two feminine items, would increase your voluptous bare bottom for me, most erotically, and sexually,
ReplyDeleteThank you sooo much for sharing! xoxo
ReplyDeleteSix -- I do wear those items sometimes, as you have seen. But this time, I was specifically told to wear a skirt with nothing under it. :-)
ReplyDeleteOFG -- you're welcome, and thank you for watching!
Erica, I finally managed to get over here to watch the last part of this. Wow, again so glad you shared these, though a bit sorry you had to go through it first ;)
ReplyDeleteEm
Em -- thank you! No reason to be sorry, though. I promise. :-)
ReplyDeleteThis was hard to watch, and hard to look away xxx
ReplyDeleteWordsmith -- I hope in a good way. :-)
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