In the past two weeks, we had two family deaths, two days apart. John and I are now both sick, so that's two colds. We've had to deal with his two sisters behaving like animals. And, due to the stress of it all, we've had two arguments.
Is it safe to say that the end of 2014 has been a great big pile of Number Two???
(sigh)
I am going to his house tonight, where we'll have a quiet night in. He's sick as hell right now (I'm getting over mine), so no festivities, except for some champagne. But it's OK. We'll be together.
I was able to see Steve for a bit of stress relief yesterday, but only for a short while, because he had work obligations. We didn't play long, but we played hard. I didn't weep while he was here, but I broke down after he left. I wish he could have stayed longer. I needed his strength.
We didn't take any photos, and we didn't last week, either. I miss that. When this whole mess is over, we want to get back to fun scenes and lots of pictures. But yesterday, I was in a melancholy yet hopeful mood, and I wanted to try to capture that in a picture by myself.
So, here I am at the end of 2014. Things seem very bleak and colorless right now, and I feel beaten down and vulnerable. But I keep telling myself this all will pass, and some vibrancy and color will come back into my days soon. I am curled up and have gone within, withdrawn into shadow... but with the cheeriness of the flowers Steve brought for me providing a small, bright beacon.
Readers, friends, wishing you all the best for 2015. Be safe tonight, whatever you're doing.
sorry to hear that has happened to your family we have also had our share of bad times this year may the new year bring us all new hope and good tidings
ReplyDeleteHope your new year is better than your end of 2014.
ReplyDeleteErica, we've loved you this year.
ReplyDeleteThank you, for every year.
The Spanking Galleries
osc -- I'm sorry to hear that. Hope it's better for all of us soon.
ReplyDeleteCraig -- me too. Happy 2015 to you and Lizzie.
SG -- love you too. :-)
(Hugs) ♥
ReplyDeleteJay -- same to you, dear.
ReplyDeleteErica,
ReplyDeleteI'll quote the saying I found on morningstar's blog today: "May the best of your past be the worst of your future!"
I hope 2015 is better for you.
Hugs,
Hermione
Erica, that were more than two flowers, as on more than two occasions.;-)) And, oh, I believe you had more than two spankings, in 2014. May all that, and more, be bestowed upon you again in 2015. And than you for your blog this year!
ReplyDeleteHope you had a good night with John.
Oh - no complaints on the picture from this side - it has artistic quality.
I'm going to wish you into the 2015 world of your blog's wallpaper - those beautiful flowers. With a hug, Jon
ReplyDeleteErica,
ReplyDeleteI hope 2015 is a better year for you and John. Best wishes to you both.
Love,
Ronnie
xx
Quoting "Auld Lang Sine", "Should all acquaintances be forgotten" No Erica, All your SPANKO friends will always be in your corner rooting for you in good times or in bad ones. So cheer up, and have a delicious black chocolate cake on me. I will always love you XXX.
ReplyDeleteMay the best experiences await for 2015!
ReplyDeleteHermione -- I like that a lot. Thank you, and hugs back.
ReplyDeleteMrJ -- I just meant the tail end of 2014 was #2, not all of it. :-) Certainly there were many good things as well. Poor John was sicker than hell last night, so no festivities for us -- we went to bed before midnight.
Jon -- thank you. Happy 2015 to you.
Ronnie -- me toooo! Happy 2015 to you and P/
Six -- I'll save the cake for when we are ready to celebrate something. But thank you.
Kelly -- for both of us!
Hi Erica -- Sending best wishes, to you and John always :-) May 2015 be a AWESOME year for you both. You did a GREAT job taking your pic it looks GREAT :-) Hope you and John feel better very soon.Much Love and hugs from naughty girl Jade/ Emily Jean
ReplyDeleteJade -- thank you. :-)
ReplyDeleteHi Erica,
ReplyDeleteHope 2015 is good to you!
R.
R -- and to you, too.
ReplyDeleteI truly hate the pain you and John are suffering through right now. May the worst of the nightmare John spoke of be over.
ReplyDeleteWishing you an excellent 2015 in every sense of the word excellent. Your blog has become very important to me.
Anon E. Mouse
Mouse -- wishing you all the best as well. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYou always show us how a keen sense of humor is a splendid survival tool, keeping what would otherwise overwhelm in some perspective, but two much is too much! So I'll be eager to hear when things level off and take an upturn. In the meantime, I add my love to the rest here!
ReplyDeleteWolfie -- I try. And believe me, I do get overwhelmed. Just ask John. But humor saves me from getting ever more so.
ReplyDeletePerhaps my favorite Erica picture ever.... Magnificently lovely!
ReplyDeletePoppa
Poppa -- thank you. :-)
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